if i get drunk and stupid and say something foolish i still don’t think i’ll ever shake this thing

One of my top 10 lists will be my TOP 10 EXPERIENCES of 2005. I’ll roll these out every so often throughout the end of the year, counting down to my favorite experience of the year. These are the moments that stick out when I glance back over my calendar…

#6 :: Song Shifts

Thanks to a boss and mother figure I had for 7.5 years when I was young and impressionable, I have a difficult time talking about my art without feeling like I’m coming off like an ego-maniac. (It was  nearly a decade into my professional writing career before, thanks to Julia Cameron, I could call myself a writer.) However, there is something intrinsicly egotistical about having a blog in the first place, and so here I am, blogging about my thoughts on my navel-gazing style of songwriting.  It’s like a mirror inside a mirror. Eh, I give that woman too much power.

Anyway, you’re hear to read about my navel-gazing, so here we go:

One thing I want to remember about 2005 was that my songs started to change. They are more gauzy and open-ended and looser and more confident and risk-taking. I like the change! It’s been fun to watch my art evolve. I felt more exhileration and excitement and joy after writing "London" than I can ever remember.  I hadn’t felt that proud feeling in many songs.

Additionally, I think that I’ve been writing some borderline optimistic songs, where before, though I never found my tunes depressing, some reported they felt like "little black holes to nowhere." (Thanks for sharing!) And, originally, being a fan of such artists as The Red House Painters and Lori Carson, I tended to take grey and black to new depths.

Now, I just notice that the songs are lighter, and aren’t always about me, and have at least a tinge of hope creaping up through the cracks. I think my creations will always have a melodramatic tinge of melancholy, but these days there’s a lot more light — and it feels nice.

NOTE: As the end of the year closes in, I’d thank all my dedicated "first run" listeners for their feedback, support, and encouragement these last 12 months: Michelle, AW, and Bradley. You guys hear my babies first and I appreciate your ears and love.

one of these nights, in the blink of an eye…

Here are the lyrics to my new song ‘blink.’ It’s one of several that appear in my new, updated lyric section on my Web site. If you’re into lyrics check them out.

I wanted to write a song about insecurity and the inability to lighten up in matters where the heart is involved. Sometimes, you just want to tell youself “GROW UP” but you just can’t make it happen on your own. So I came up with this song “blink”…i originally felt silly singing the Ladidadideda part, even all alone in my living room, but then I realized that’s the point of the song!

The photo of me at right is from a little outdoor party I played at over the weekend. Good times. Thanks for the pic, sugarmoxa!

BLINK

you don’t call me and i panic
expectation meets semantics
and i start looking for the holes

growing up has never been this tough
you could never reassure me enough
this terror, well, it comes and goes

but one of these days
i’ll be alright
the past won’t replay this time
and one of these nights
in the blink of an eye
i’ll be
la di da da de di da
la di da di da di da

if i believe it, then i’ll see it
when good enough’s alone, i leave it
and i could be real bad news

because once i win it, then it starts to dim
and I can’t feel it, though I’m in it
and i don’t even trust the truth

but one of these days
it’ll be alright
the past won’t replay this time
and one of these nights
in the blink of an eye
i’ll be
la di da da de di da
la di da di da di da

BRIDGE
i can’t avoid the crash
don’t know how to make this last
i can only touch it as it passes
and i can’t compare you
it’s not fair to the others who
even on their best days
just weren’t you…
they weren’t you….
they weren’t la di de da di de da

but one of these days
it’ll be alright
the past won’t replay this time
and one of these nights
in the blink of an eye
i’ll be
la di da da de di da
la di da di da di da

© 2005, lucas miré (BMI)

you’re in san diego, i’m in love

Heading into the studio on Sunday to start work on the next CD. It’s exciting to be starting a new project in Biscuit’s new studio. With everything going on, it really does feel like a new beginning. One of the songs we’ll be working on earlier than later (I hope!) is one that I feel is my best song since “Francis.”

LONDON
you’re not here for two more weeks
so I re-read that email you sent me before you left
and I don’t really know you, o, but I want to
if I get drunk and stupid, I might feel foolish
but I don’t think I’ll ever shake this thing
while

CHORUS
you’re in London
you’re in London
you’re in London
and I guess your cell phone don’t work over there
you’re in London and I don’t care

but you’re not here
so I’m left with this song
these words and sounds strung along on a line
and these two chords, they come in time
and I go back and forth
in my mind, I go back and forth
and forth and back
I’m inventing my own distractions….
while

CHORUS II
you’re in London
you’re in London
you’re in London
and I guess your fingers don’t work over there
you’re in London
and I’m not supposed to care

BRIDGE
so you kiss somebody, you miss me,
so you kiss somebody, you miss me, so
you kiss somebody, you miss me, and so
you kiss somebody who looks like me
and so you kiss somebody because you’re lonely
but I’ll be fine, though those arms aren’t mine….
while

CHORUS III
you’re in London
and I guess your young heart don’t work over there
you’re in London
and I don’t care

TAG
you’re in London and I’m in over my head
you’re in London and I’m in love
I think I’m in love

but you’re not here for two more weeks
so I re-read that email you sent me

© 2005, Lucas J. Miré/Miré-cle Music, BMI